I think most of us have been through the ups and downs of candle making...lots of downs at first. Hang in there, you have been given some great advice. The only thing I can add is if possible choose a wax supplier that is close by so shipping doesn't kill you. I decided from the beginning that I loved flake wax and never turned back, just worked with many scents till I came upon 40 that worked. Now and I add scents each year (as suppliers close up and I can no longer get my originals) and again everyone here is a HUGE help with that as well. I think most of us have days when we feel 40 yrs older than we are...I have weeks, lol! It's all good, we still get out of bed every day!