Gary in Canada

Hi Gary!

Oh thankyou....that was so sweet of you.  Her name is Bonnie.   She was 14 years old.   Bonnie died a couple months.   It was a horrible horrible shock.  She was fine in the morning and then she took a walk and I couldn't find her for the whole afternoon till later that evening by the side of the dirt road in a ditch just sitting there not knowing where she was.  I got her to the emergency vet clinic and she had a temperature of 105, her heart beat was over 200 a minute, her blood pressure was off the charts.  She was extremely critical and they didn't think she would make it through the night as she was in severe pain.  They thought she possibly had a tumor that burst.  The best thing was not to let her suffer and ease her pain and I had to let her go to heaven with a quick painless injection.  It was the hardest thing I had to do and I have been so depressed.  She was my world.  And yes, your words of her adoring me was "exact".   She adored me and worshipped the ground I walked on.  She was a throw away dog, a border collie that someone dropped off on the side of the road that I rescued.  She actually rescued me...She was literally glued to my hip and I took her everywhere with me....I mean everywhere.  To all my jobs she went, not one place was she not ever with me.  She was never on a leash.  I would go into Home Depot and she would walk right along my side and I would point to something in an aisle, she would go and get it and carry in her mouth to the register with a happy butt shaking a mile a minute of just sheer joy of carrying something for me and just happy to be with me and people would literally stop in their tracks always saying they had never seen a dog so well behaved and smart as she and just wished their dog was like Bonnie.   She was the best of the best of the best.   There will never be another dog so beautiful as my little girl was.   I buried on my little tract of land facing the pond with my  horse, Timmy, my best bud, my horse of 34 years who I just lost  3 months prior and the same exact way Bonnie died and who I had his whole life.

Thankyou for the beautiful comment you made of Bonnie.  That is one of my most favorite pictures I have of her.  Her eyes she never took off of me as like the picture shows.  Here are a couple more pictures that aren't so tiny you can see of her and she has the same pose in them.  It's like she posed for every picture.  The one of me and her on the porch of my little shack...believe it or not these were selfie pictures as I live by myself and in that particular picture I told Bonnie to go and jump in the red rocker and sit there while I set the timer on the camera and then I ran to the porch so quickly and sat down in front of her and when the picture snapped, it turned out like this!  She was looking right into the camera....oh my gosh, I just couldn't believe my little Bonnie. The picture of her sitting on the farm table was taken at an arts and crafts show I did one one year and I would bring furniture props for my booth set up and of course Bonnie was at my side.  I was unloading furniture off my truck and I turned around and there she was sitting on top of the farm table she jumped up on as she watched me.... She was my world.

I love your pics with Bonnie..she is a beautiful dog...I have read your reply about 4 times..and each time I read it..I have to pause and reach for a tissue before continuing..I actually went to bed last night and woke up thinking about you and your beloved pet..geez...the older I get, the more sentimental I get.  I am really sorry for your loss..

Looking at your pics and message, I can tell she was a great companion for you through out her life, and that must have been one of the most difficult times for you when she was not well.  I have been through the same thing a few times, and every time I say..".I can't go through this again"...but a couple of months later, I miss the companionship and love that a dog like Bonnie (and our Abby) gives you, and I give in and get another furry family member .

I know I always thought I would not be able to replace our original pet..but each new one had its own personality and we learned to live and adapt to our new pet, and hopefully you can do that also...it seems to me that Bonnie was the perfect companion to you and hopefully you can come close to Bonnie with a new companion...